Decisions In Life

Hear my cry, O Lord, shape me, mold me...Hold me in your arms...

I am starting to really dislike monday meetings, especially those involve changes which divides the team instead of bringing unity. I have enough deadlines as it is, as it is quarter end...now meetings..."changes"...I know I have to put my faith and trust in God, I pary that He shows me the way....Why is it, it seems that all of us are going through a "rough" time? A few of my brothers and sisters in Christ, are also currently facing challenges...sometimes, it seems to get harder to face. We all have different challenges and situations...sadness and anger, perhaps disappointment. As we face our difficulties, know that God is w/ us.

"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way.But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life,there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."The LORD replied:
"My son, my precious child,I love you and I would never leave you.During your times of trial and suffering,when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."

I will pray for u guys...please pray for me too=) Together we stand united and can overcome any difficult situation thrown at us.

Fabulous Weekend

It's been awhile once again writing in my blog...but let me try once again...it's been a fabulous weekend...how so, you ask? Well....

Friday night, One of my good friends organized an informal get together of old friends just to catch up on everyone's lives...it was very productive. Met one new friend and got reaquainted w/ a few others. Dinner was great and BBT afterwards was delicious =) What can I say? Mango BBT...yums.

Saturday was a long yet productive day. Spent an hour or so shopping w/ a friend and then we went to grab some mailto:coffee@... Much needed I must say. Lack of sleeep from the previous night, kinda caught up to me. I think I had some kind of caramel "Machilatto" or something...No idea what it was...but it was the waiter's recommendation and he put whip cream on top. Later on, we went w/ another friend to attend the Toronto Mass Choir concert performance in NY (North York). It was a "Wow!" performance. It was quite powerful and refreshing. It was my very first live Gospel music concert. Despite, the "winter wonderland" weather out there, everyone had a great time of fellowship. Even got a chance to be a "kid" again. Snow was fresh and fluffy, great for friendly snowball fights. Yes yes...that's right...I started a snowball fight...little innocent me...hahaha...Afterward, all of us enjoyed a late night snack/appetizer/dinner at the Keg in TO. Once again, great time of fellowship...Thanks for the invite Cliff! Got home pretty late, extremely late...but it was all worth it=) Including being stopped by the "R.I.D.E" program. Luckily I didn't drink...hehehe.

Sunday was marvellous as well...went to Church, Sunday School and our usual lunch spot. Learned about Revelations, the End times...By the time, I came home, I was tired. Tooka power nap...and here I am...writing all this down. Back to work tomorrow=(

Yesterday (Thursday)

Yes, Thursday......such a crummy day weather wise. Thunderstorm, ice, snow...bad weather to be driving. I was worried at first as I left work, I spent ten minutes trying to pry my car from a centimeter of ice. Now onto the good part.

That evening, a few of us had the opportunity to serve at Open Doors in Mississauga. It's a social program that helps the community for those less fortunate. It was a joint venture w/ the Chinese Baptist Church. We were able to serve over 40 men, women and children all who had come into eat a warm meal that they may not have had. Thank you to all those that helped prepare the food, serve the food and the music. We all work as a team to Glorify God.

After the meal, I had a chance to speak to a man who was down on his luck. I was able to share w/ him how I went through a down time as well a couple weeks ago and how God had helped me. Although, we all have different types of down time, depression or just sadness, know that God will always be there helps. For me, He used His servants, my brothers in Christ, to help me, telling me everything will be okay. Having them pray for me and with me was great also. Getting to the point, after sharing this w/ him, he shared a bit about himself...his problems and how people view him. After that, I prayed w/ him and just gave him some encouragement. Often times, they just need someone to talk to and listen to them...just showing that you care and how God works in our lives...is what they need.

God does work in mysterious ways...always teaching me more about myself and how others want to know him, all they needed was the opportunity. I praise God for giving me the opportunity to share my faith.

All U Can Eat Sushi

Wow, it's been awhile since I wrote in this blog...It's been a challenging February to start. Lots of things have been happening in my life, and well it wasn't all that great. However, life is getting better...one day at a time. Last nite, a few of us from fellowship went to an all-u-can eat sushi buffet in Markham called "Maison du Japan." It was DELICIOUS! I've never eaten so much sashimi ever...I also had my first wasabi salmon cake, also yummy! For those who thought I'd cry, sorry to disspoint you, but no tears for you. The wasabi was mixed w/ mayo so it wasn't too bad. I'm glad everyone had a good time...we should defintely do this again! Thanks to Marc for organizing the buffet and thanks to Eddy for suggesting Maison du Japan and thanxs to Daniel for coming out.

Do U have any regrets? Did U wonder "what if"?

If you're like me, these things ponder in your mind. In my case, I started thinking these thoughts tonight during my "Sharing" time in fellowship. I saw how God has led me to another church and the impact I've had on everyone there. I have seen how God has worked me into their lives and theirs into mine. I give all the praises and glory to God for showing me and teaching me about myself and where my strengths and weaknesses are. Until last year, I didn't know or I should say unsure of "who I am"...For some of those who have known me for quite sometime, will know that I used to be a shy shy person. I'd just blend in w/ the wall so to speak. I didn't have the best time growing up in my teenage years. I guess you could say, those are some of the years I'd rather forget. There are good memories but there are also some deep, sad stories that even looking back, I can't believe I even had thoughts of myself dying and I don't mean from natural causes. Maybe, it's something I'll share w/ my closest friends one day...it's quite depressing really...
But now, I will admit I am at a happy yet confused stage in life, but for some reason...I started thinking..."what if?" You know those thoughts of, do I regret not saying "goodbye", if I said this and that instead of such and such...what would my relationship w/ my friends be like? I guess, so many unanswered questions, because I am one of those people who go through life, thinking "what if"...We all make choices everyday, it is inevitable...sometimes it's the right one and sometimes well.......what can I say? Someone gets hurt...or something goes wrong. I've realized that no one is perfect, life is so noooooooot perfect but I pray to God that He helps me and all of you to help lift each other up spiritually, to be able to have the "honest community"...

Signing off for now as it's like way past my bedtime=)