Lord, you showed me so much, I just want to cry...
Lord, tonight I heard the testimonies/experiences of Uncle Swiba and Aunite Brenda...I think back to one year ago when they left, when I first came to MCAC then, how much my life has changed. Of course, I can never well not anytime soon share what kind of pains I gone through, but to also realize what my life was like when I first came to MCAC. I will admit, it brought some memories back, a few that are rather left in the past, I guess just seeing them tonite again and how I was there at their farewell party just one year ago, it just made me want to cry.
Tonite, my friend and I had a deep chat/concern for some people we all care about...but a Pastor friend gave me some advice and how we should approach this sensitive issue to our friends. Who'd think we'd chat til almost 2am about it. One of the good things that came out of this conversation, is that we made a promise to each other, to hold each other accountable. It is a challenge for me, but I'm willing to take it.
Furthermore, I know what I want in finding my "Better half." When my friend asked me this, at Easter, I just gave a typical answer of what I want but at the same time I wasn't focused on that. Looking for a man after God's heart first is sometimes easier said than done. Looks is nothing, sorry to disspoint guys, but honestly, if the heart is not God's first, than buddy, you don't meet the quals...This may sound a little harsh, but I finally will stick to my "guns", see through the shell, the outer layer, getting to know the person w/in. I know I do not necessarily have the best pretty side(personality wise) either, NOT even close to perfect, unfortunately those closest to me know what I've tlaking about... but if you're not intersted in helping me develop my Spiritual life, how can we be together? Of course, I don't have the right to judge "guys", b/c I myself am not perfect but I pray that God grants me patience and wisdom. Yes, it took 25years of my life to figure out what I want and to stick w/ it...I can be indecisive, extremely...hahaha..but that is b/c of something that happnd in HS, that thinking back brings tears. Tonite, a friend of mine asked me to name 3 goodlooking engineers...now I could only name two that fit her standards as "good looking" but to me "good looking" is not just the physical appearance. God created us to be unique, for me I know a lot of engineers...but as long as the "heart" is good looking and healthy that's the most important thing. Yes, these people do exist, you just have to pray and seek God's guidance. Who knows? It may be someone you know or somewhere out there...My advice to guys and gals, seek God first and the rest will fall into place=)
Enough rambling, it's almost 3am...
Tonite, my friend and I had a deep chat/concern for some people we all care about...but a Pastor friend gave me some advice and how we should approach this sensitive issue to our friends. Who'd think we'd chat til almost 2am about it. One of the good things that came out of this conversation, is that we made a promise to each other, to hold each other accountable. It is a challenge for me, but I'm willing to take it.
Furthermore, I know what I want in finding my "Better half." When my friend asked me this, at Easter, I just gave a typical answer of what I want but at the same time I wasn't focused on that. Looking for a man after God's heart first is sometimes easier said than done. Looks is nothing, sorry to disspoint guys, but honestly, if the heart is not God's first, than buddy, you don't meet the quals...This may sound a little harsh, but I finally will stick to my "guns", see through the shell, the outer layer, getting to know the person w/in. I know I do not necessarily have the best pretty side(personality wise) either, NOT even close to perfect, unfortunately those closest to me know what I've tlaking about... but if you're not intersted in helping me develop my Spiritual life, how can we be together? Of course, I don't have the right to judge "guys", b/c I myself am not perfect but I pray that God grants me patience and wisdom. Yes, it took 25years of my life to figure out what I want and to stick w/ it...I can be indecisive, extremely...hahaha..but that is b/c of something that happnd in HS, that thinking back brings tears. Tonite, a friend of mine asked me to name 3 goodlooking engineers...now I could only name two that fit her standards as "good looking" but to me "good looking" is not just the physical appearance. God created us to be unique, for me I know a lot of engineers...but as long as the "heart" is good looking and healthy that's the most important thing. Yes, these people do exist, you just have to pray and seek God's guidance. Who knows? It may be someone you know or somewhere out there...My advice to guys and gals, seek God first and the rest will fall into place=)
Enough rambling, it's almost 3am...
posted by Bonbon at 12:03 AM
2 Comments:
Hey Bonz,
Good points on the looking for the better half stuff. As my friend would say, "I gotta find someone who will always love God more than she could ever love me" (my friend is a guy). Looks are just a bonus :) No?
You got that right Girl! The heart will not change even if everything else does=)
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