My thoughts......

My Special Surprise

noreply@blogger.com (Bonbon) — Thu, 01 Oct 2009 23:40:00 +0000

Wow, I can't believe it's October 1st...where did September go? It was only a few days ago that I celebrated my biggest surprise ever. Showered with a splendid dinner, surprised by my friends who were there, receiving roses, receiving mixed flowers, pooh bear, mathematical bday card, among other things, oh and a journal. I really don't know what to say...except that I'm speechless, surprised, and really blushing. I can't believe how much effort went into this, i was touched...I didn't know to hug or cry, it was an unforgettable day.

It's funny, I have so much to share, in the excitement, but it's so personal and thoughtful, that sometimes it's better just to be remembered between us. The smiles, the laughter, our expressions, emotions, may never be caught on film but will be captured in our hearts, in our minds. I'll remember being somewhat blindfolded and being led into the restaurant, to open my eyes and find my friends there=) The excitement, not too sure what to expect or who I will see...you guys really surprised me well. I still find I'm naive and gullible...which sometimes can be a flaw of mine. Sometimes I'm too excited or surprised, that I don't know how to react because I can't believe it's really happening...b/c I'm too happy=)

Prep for Emmanuel Retreat

noreply@blogger.com (Bonbon) — Fri, 24 Jul 2009 04:52:00 +0000

Well it's been a lot of planning this past week, lots of txting back and forth, and effective communication...haha. We may disagree, but in the end, it works out in the end.

(me): I was sharing with someone earlier tonight, what if I get stung by something or I end up in the hospital, you'll come and visit me right? (Response:) I'll be the first one there to visit you.
It was one of those awwwwwwwww moments. Made me feel better of course, who wouldn't right?

I think I'm prepared for this trip, although I haven't started to pack yet and it's 1am now. Yes, i know I'm only staying one night, but still...

Praying for a nicer weekend than forecasted. Rain or shine, we will have a good time, bonding together, doing devotions, the sharing and doing bible study together.Pray for safety as we have four cars driving up (me included) all leaving near or during rush hour too. Pray that our friendships grow as we share with one another.

i'll blog once I return...I got a lot accomplished tonight, had a mini meeting w/ my marketing group for the assignment due. Also came back to my computer after 10minutes of putting a cooler together (yes, this one has things to put together) and 10 windows of msn messages pop up, wow...didn't think I was gone that long and this was close to midnight too. Interesting, haha...

End of June already - East meets West

noreply@blogger.com (Bonbon) — Mon, 29 Jun 2009 05:22:00 +0000

I really can't believe June has already come to an end...time really flies.

Brief Synopsis:
* Moved office spaces twice, now trying to settle in and unpack
* Wrote TX1 Exam
* Baked like no tomorrow (Cinnabons, Cheesecakes, tarts, pinwheels)
* Did preliminary menu for a wedding in October (the dessert part of it), my team, etc...
* Hosted a BBQ with friends, and met new friends (East meets West, and North meets South), glad to see my Markham/BB/Sauga Friends.
* Played wii (realize I don't excel in Bomberman, but I do in Raeman Rabbits when it involves slapping something or other) **hidden meaning?**
*" You get teased of course all in good fun, b/c you are well loved" end of quote.
* the Bonnie scent = smell of smoke coming from a BBQ, hahaha....
* I have friends coming to Church in Sauga from Markham
* I've been told that I may be swept off to Markham, I guess is a nicer way of saying instead of being kidnapped. So far, all my defences have been penetrable except one or two that someone has yet to figure out, muhahahaha...
* Getting ready to pack for JMC, five days of conferences (yes I'll be working too, have my laptop with me and work phone and my textbook)

My first Case Study in MM1

noreply@blogger.com (Bonbon) — Sat, 20 Jun 2009 18:54:00 +0000

So most of us started the Marketing Management Course late, since we were all writing exams the same week. So this week, we had four assignments do, which, one of them was the 2000 word paper. Of course, I dreaded it...I didn't want to write first one. There's like a total of nine or 10 I think for this course, "cases" that require 2000 word paper and I'm doing two of them. It just drains the energy out of you writing the case studies...No matter how much coffee/green tea I drink, sometimes I think it's the pressure to finish writing it that is my motivation to stay up. Of course, the coffee/tea helps. Bad side, is that it'll take a few days for my body to catch up on sleep. My sleeping pattern is quite messed up. I was doing so well going to sleep around 11/11:30, but this week it's been 1 or or 3am. Hopefully, it will go back to normal soon.

This week I also spent time knowing my online group too. I have 5 members in the GTA and two from New Brunswick, so it is a challenge to work together with different time zones and really never fully met except online. Although, we do communicate via cell phones as well, I think, as a group we're making progress. I praise God that He gave me the gift of connecting with people. Being the glue to hold this group together:)

Well, it's Saturday, gonna go chill w/ my MAC Eng...buddies, well some are some aren't. It's a good mix, old friends.

God provides opportunities...

noreply@blogger.com (Bonbon) — Sat, 13 Jun 2009 04:35:00 +0000

Well, it's been tough at work lately, so today, a lot of the upper management were gone on site I think in the afternoon, so it gave me some time to think. Actually, I was pulled into a meeting this morning, unexpectedly, so that took up an hour of my time, which made me somewhat skip lunch. Rather a Site Manager came to visit me and we chatted for a good half hour. Something that I don't like to do in the office, b/c it shows I'm not as productive...but technically this was during "lunch" hour. So Ron comes in and sits in my spare chair, guest chair(I really should get rid of it) and we're talking about phone plans and travelling, somehow the topic got to my mission trip to Nicarauga last year. So I shared with him my experiences, not knowing if he's a Christian or not, but it just kinda happened. Anyways, he asked me if I would go back, I said probably, but not right now. Too much going on at both work, school, and personal life. Somehow we got onto the topic of faith, and the bible, and about how the birds do not worry but why do I worry? From the book of Matthew...Well that was something I shared, yet b/c I'm human and a sinner, not perfect, to some extent I still do. Romans 3:23, "For all have fall short of the glory of God." Sometimes it's easier said than done, and he asked me, does that mean my faith isn't strong enough? There are times/moments that I worry about things, job, economy and whatnot, and times that I don't...I wasn't sure how to answer...but he said he'd like to chat about it some other time. So I'm like Yay!

Sunday First weekend of June

noreply@blogger.com (Bonbon) — Sun, 07 Jun 2009 23:05:00 +0000

Well, let's see...I've never seen snack size NY Cheesecake disappear that fast before...it was yummy though. My mom was pleased at how it turned out she wants me to make it for Hamilton next week. I do enjoy baking and serving so I don't mind. It brings out the creative side and what I can do:) I must have been really tired though, by the time I came home this afternoon, ate some lunch, and napped. I thought several hours went by but only 45minutes did before I was woken up. Long story short, she has to see a dentist in the morning. Thank you for the prayers, in a time of need, thank you for showing support and concern, means a lot to me.

Now back to studying, two days away before the exam.

What have I done this week?

noreply@blogger.com (Bonbon) — Sat, 06 Jun 2009 23:00:00 +0000

Let's see.... It's now Saturday evening and yes at home blogging...not because I don't have a life, which I do but my exam is on Wednesday night.

Monday: Worked on a lot of reports and approving invoices - Went to the gym and did the Body Combat/kick boxing class w/ friends:) - Checking on last minute deals/quality of appliances for a friend's condo (becomes easier as I do more homes)

Tuesday: Continued on reports... Started to study for exam.

Wednesday: Looking over the Corp. Phone plans and more reports... - did a 30min jog on the treadmill @ Goodlife:)...spent time w/ mom.

Thursday: Good/bad day at work, depends when you asked me... - Did a bit of MSN, and 3hours of studying (more than I've done all week in one sitting)

Friday: Meeting w/ VP, went ok - bought lots of fruits for baking on saturday/sunday - found out my first module assignments are due next week:( My Tax exam and my Marketing MGMT course overlap by one week. I tend to get really stress under these deadlines...sometimes emotional. Rather the word is overwelmed. Not too sure what to do first, besides PANIC. The Website is down so I can't look at my assignment and see my team's responses. So if you're into Marketing, please help me:) Talked to a couple friends, prayed with one another...wrote an encouraging graduation note to one of my sisters in Christ.

Saturday: Woke up at 8:00am went to Goodlife and did 1.5hours...weighed myself - happy at the result so far [5lbs less], I'm on the right track. Bought some more Strawberries and blueberries...this can be bad b/c 1/3 of my fridge is now full of strawberries. So what do I do? I go on a baking frenzy and made for the first time mini New York style Cheesecakes w/ strawberry. Yes, baking does calm me down, helps me relax and focus. So for tomorrow's Coffee Corner after our English Service, there will be Mini NY Cheesecake w/ strawberies, Strawberry Fruit tarts and mini butter croissants baked fresh:) Everything, is mini or "Bite size" since it's meant to feed 60-80ish. Hope everyone enjoys it:) Will post the pics on FB.

Trying to Journal weekly if not daily...

noreply@blogger.com (Bonbon) — Thu, 28 May 2009 00:22:00 +0000

So this is my goal...after talking with a friend lately how important it is keep a journal, not only to reflect what has gone on in my life but also to look back as I move forward in life, I can see how far I've come. I had kept a journal while I was preparing for my Short-Term Mission last spring and while I was there as well. It was good to look back on the obstacles, challenges placed before me and the memories that last a lifetime. Even though it has been a year, when I looked back at the videos recently while visiting a friend, it came all back to me. I'm thankful that I kept that journal and the videos/pictures.
Sometimes there are feelings, emotions of joy or sadness that I can't share with anyone, except for God, for He knows all...so it's good to write it down and be able to read it again. There are times that I can share everything w/ those closest to me, for I know I'm not alone.

Just wanted to say, thank you keke...for the talk on keeping a journal that night...I will try to keep an electronic journal this time...for my own growth...life passed by really fast lately and I want to make sure I capture the moments...both good and bad.

May 2009...what a month!!

noreply@blogger.com (Bonbon) — Sat, 23 May 2009 01:35:00 +0000

May 2009 has been a crazy month...Time has come and gone and I feel like, where was I? So much has happened good and bad of course, and only a small handful only know what really happened.
Something I realized is that how blessed I am to be surrounded by truly great friends. When I was tired, a friend said, i don't think you should be driving...at that moment, I thought, how tired am I? Was it possible that just doing so much that perhaps, my body was really tired? Perhaps, I needed an extra cup of caffeine? LOL...I shouldn't be tired as I only got a haircut in Markham, bbtea w/ friends, sushi@ Ten Ichi, and a movie. Anyways, I am truly blessed to have a friend to tell me, please don't drive...I'm concerned...stay over and rest.

I've also hosted my first BBQ of the year, with friends from fellowship both the English speaking and the Chinese. We all had good food and sang K. My house was just a bit packed, although managed the parking quite well. I'm glad everyone had a good time:)

Last part of the month, well it's been a very difficult time. I can't really comment or say what has happened, but I am truly thankful when I was down, that the Lord provided comfort. When things were uncertain, He was there every step of the way. I will always be forever grateful for the friends God has put in my life, for that exact moment, I realized why we met. There are friends that will be there in the good times...but the ones that can sense/know/comfort when I am down are those I hold close to my heart...for they are the ones that will walk alongside me.

Month of April in one scoop.

noreply@blogger.com (Bonbon) — Sat, 23 May 2009 01:21:00 +0000

Wow, April 2009, went by at the blink of an eye. I remember talking to a friend about how stressful it has been these past few months and he had suggested I go on a vacation, even if it's a weekend get away. So when the opportunity came, my friends and i went to Washington, DC for the Easter long weekend. For me this is very spontaneous...I haven't travelled out of the country since my mission trip to Nicaragua. None the less, I enjoyed my time in Washington, though it was very brief. Saw a few museums, went out to a nice place for dinner Saturday night, called Acadia. Hotel was very nice, and hospitable...and also got a couple good workouts at the hotel. I enjoyed the company of my friends and just being able to chill and relax...only downside, got quite the number of phone calls from Canada.

On another weekend, a friend of mine suggested I go up for a visit up in Bracebridge, and since I've never been up north, it'd be a good weekend getaway for me. I will admit I was afraid at first since I've never driven up north, less alone 2hrs 17min. I did enjoy the scenery on my way up and no, I did not hit any animals. The first night I arrived, it was very sunny and warm. Dropped off some stuff at the construction site and went over to the High School. The highlights of the weekend to make this reading a bit shorter is the wonderful waterfalls up here in Bracebridge. The trails are nice and everyone is very friendly, reminds me of Burlington. Marty's cafe has really great Butter tarts, no joke:) A bit pricey, but really good. They even have fresh flowers placed at every table, very cozy. It was really weird weather though, it rained and stopped, then downpoured. Luckily, it downpoured while we were inside the cafe, so we tried to wait out the storm. Helped make dinner "Tom yum soup" very delicious, it was my first time making it and eating it. It was the most relaxing weekend I've had in a very long time...just cooking, eating together, watching tv, relaxing, napping at the waterfalls, it was just breathless. Their church was very friendly also...I don't remember the name of it, except it was a Pentecostal Church. I still remember some of the people I met that day. I'm glad I went up to BB and hopefully will have the opportunity to go back in the fall when the leaves turn.

Bible Verse I wanted to share...

noreply@blogger.com (Bonbon) — Mon, 30 Mar 2009 01:43:00 +0000

It says:

"You are my friends if you do what I command. I no longer call you sevants, because a servant does not know his master's business. Instead I call you my friends, for everything that I learned from my Father, I have made known to you. You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go bear fruit-fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name." ~ John 15:14-16

I really like this verse, very personal, a relationship between myelf and God. Althougth, He is mighty and powerful, majestic, He calls us His friends.

God Answers Prayers...

noreply@blogger.com (Bonbon) — Tue, 10 Mar 2009 03:34:00 +0000

It's been a very long time since I've posted, but there's been good and bad things that have happenend since I've last posted. Let's just focus on the current though.

God answers prayers. Lately, it seems that I have been very distracted with exam preparations that I've put aside all those that I care about, my family and friends. Two of my friends recently have been going through a lot with their fathers being ill and in the hospital. When they shared their respective news to me, I immediately prayed for them and their families. I truly believe that God answers prayers and comforts all of us when we are struggling. I found that while I was working I'd be thinking about my friend's and their families and how they were all doing. It is a difficult time, when you are not sure what's happening in the ICU and just want to know.

But I'm happy to report that both of these families I have mentioned are doing better. Miracles still happen everyday...no matter how small it is, you only need to open your eyes and see.

July 11-13th weekend

noreply@blogger.com (Bonbon) — Mon, 21 Jul 2008 02:09:00 +0000

Let's see...

Friday: Went to my friend Many's Bday party. Thanks Chanthan for organizing. I showed up a bit late at Philthy's...but I had already eaten, but there's always room for appetizers and tea. Then the celebrations continued by watching "Wanted", it was that or "Hancock"...ok so I think it was James or Charles that wanted to see Hancock instead but ah well, there were only 24 seats left for Hancock and it was all front seat so it was a noooooooo... Since there was an hour in between, we were to William's Pub for tea and coffee while we waited for the movie to start.
It was a good evening to see old friends after all, a couple of friends that I've seen a few times.

Saturday: Had a meeting for visitation ministry that I am involved in and then spent time w/ mom by shopping at T&T and just cooking for her and eating at home. Yes, it's a rare occasion.

Sunday: Was the busiest day since Friday. I saw my friend and sister Tania RSVP to a nic4 reunion as unable to attend b/c she was in Brampton. When I saw that I called her immediately to see where in Brampton that I could give her a ride also. So I drove her to MCAC and she really enjoyed it. She asked numerous questions in Sunday School on the book of Romans, which is great to see. When she was asked about MCAC, she really enjoyed Sunday School, almost like she didn't want to leave, haha, and this was 1pm. Thanks to Pat, Felix, and everyone else for making her feel welcome...she also found one thing about me, she didn't know...I go salsa dancing, hahaha... After lunch w/ Zoe and Pat, we took off to Richmond Hill for bowling. I invited a few friends to join as well, so it was fun. I get teased but it was all in good fun. I found bowling was not my forte, but overall fun. After a round of bowling at Worldbowl, the gang and i went to Destiny's Bubble tea on Finch, nice nice place. We all had the nice comfy couch and i ordered the "Mango mix" oh sooooooooooo yummy, but I split w/ Tania. Ryan had the mocha mix, looked soooooo good. Grace had this green apple drink I think, w/ jelly, yummmmmmy. Surprisingly I ordered a Green Tea mix and Keith liked it, haha...
After a round at Destiny's most of us went to Ten Ichi Sushi Restaurant in Scarborough. Must say, it was fabulous. I think it is one of the better ones as it has a wide variety...I think i want to go there for my birthday this year. The Koebe beef was excellent, short ribs were yummy, tuna excellent....oh and the dragon roll over a mango sauce, I'm going to druel soon... It was Nic4/Nic5 reunion/discuss fundraising ideas. So thanks to Mike for coming out, just listening and then just catching up...discussing on topics also the social economic condition in Toronto. The mixed income social housing project, poverty in Toronto, missions, etc...

Overall, a ***** 5 star day=)

Long Weekend

noreply@blogger.com (Bonbon) — Sat, 05 Jul 2008 17:05:00 +0000

Sooooooo my plans changed...I didn't end up going to Boston. I do have some regrets not going, but I did have a good time here in the surrounding GTA area as well. So what did I do?

Saturday: Went to an Irish Pub to celebrate Nikki's Bday, and Elaine's engagement. It was also just an evening to just hang out, to chill and catch up w/ each other. I'm happy for my friends as they prepare for their respective weddings next year...time will fly, among other changes.

Sunday: Made a cake for Sunday School snacks, I must say I enjoyed making the chocolate fans rather than the cake itself. Just melting chocolate and creating my own designs is fun. My mom came w/ me to MCAC so after, one of my friends drove me to SQ1 to meet her there. There was a little "AyAyAy! luncheon" which we enjoyed the good times from the concert. I spent time w/ my family tonight, watched a movie at home and had T&T for dinner.

Monday: Last minute planning, and had a BBQ at my house tonight, sent out email the night before. It was suppose to be a games night at my friend's place in Etobicoke, but plans change and one of my friends suggested my place. So BBQ at my place...My brother prepared sushi, pasta, and I made crepes...we also had burgers and hotdogs...and the food wasn't burnt. It was nicely cooked. Great chefs helping out. It was an evening of Wii night in the basement (wii Tennis, etc) and Xbox360 on the main floor (Rockband). It was great to just see friends from all over coming(mostly Emmanuel), from Sauga, Brampton, Hamilton and Richmond Hill. Just seeing people connect, having fun, laughing together, now that's a great party. Party finally ended closer to 2am, luckily it was a long weekend.

Tuesday: Went to Markham with my family to Pmall, and then went to KBBQ at Commercegate. Found out I only eat Beef, Beef ribs, Chicken, Salmon, and KimChi...and planned along w/ Marc a last minute fireworks, thankfully he sent an email out. I forgot that I don't have unlimited airtime during the day. So a few of us got together and went to BBTea at Oasis (a bit slow, but less noise) and went to see the fireworks at CityCentre...not realizing traffic was backed up to the eyes can see, but we had to park at the Coliseum and watch from there. Ottawa has better fireworks though, but then that was $100K. It was pretty cold that night, so it took me like 2hours to drink my Mango Slush... Overall, a fun night.

My Spiritual Gifts

noreply@blogger.com (Bonbon) — Sat, 28 Jun 2008 03:39:00 +0000

Two weeks ago we did a Spiritual Gifts survey and i realized how mine had changed...how mine reflect who I am today...My top three from highest to lowest: Hospitality, Missionary, and Encouragment. This has been confirmed by various people as well, I really do like bringing people together, meeting new friends, taking care of my brothers and sisters, whether it be cooking for friends, an email, or a phone call. Next, my Missionary experience....most of you know, I was on a trip to Nicaragua and how it changed my life, the things i experienced, witnessed, the heartbreaking moments...and the need that there needs to be more people doing missionary work whether locally or overseas. Last, but not least Encouragement. Cheering a friend up, being there supporting him or her through prayer, talking, and just hanging out. Supporting him or her in their decision and just being there for him or her when the time is right.

Great weekend

noreply@blogger.com (Bonbon) — Tue, 24 Jun 2008 01:19:00 +0000

Saturday:

It was our Church's Johnny Jaurez concert, I was soooooo happy 274 people came that night. The friends I invited plus one of Eric's friend's Jarom also came from Waterloo, so that was awesome. Si came in from Scarborough, York, , Jon(Hamilton), Emily came technically from Burlington since they were over for the afternoon. So I treated my friends out for dinner before the concert, nothing too fancy...but a good time to get to know friends before the concert started.

York and Jon are like 'best of friends' from the start...York is like, 'I like him'...great personality and the two chat like no tomorrow, lol...

The concert itself was amazing...I was ushering at first so when the concert started, Johnny Jaurez was singing and I noticed patches of the crowd from all over started to just stand and dance and praise God freely. Not the typical chinese, just sit and stare...so i was happy, joyous to be able to witness that. Unfortuantely we all couldn't fit in a row so some of the guys had to sit a couple rows behind us. We were trying to seat 13 or 15 in one row:( Kelly, Emily, Si, saved me a seat, while Jon, Dave, and Ron also were in the seats next to us all....it was great to meet new friends, further the fellowship w/ the exisiting members as well. The music was just great, and I also found out that the guitarist Gonsalves, was from Nicarauga as well. As soon as I heard that I had to meet him and his family. I told him that I was just there a couple months ago, and we exchanged emails b/c he wanted to help serve/teach Nicaragua Mission's team5 Spanish for free.

After the concert, and putting away the chairs we proceeded to go to BBtea at Oasis...it will most likely be the new hang out place instead of BR. Everyone liked it and we had lots of room, very cozy and rpviate. Originally it was 15 of us but it kept expanding...If I recall, Kelly C, Jarom, me, Dan T, Cliff, Dave, Marc, Emily C, York, Eric, Dan, Jon, Ron, Alan, Margaret, Jason L, Bonnie K, Angelica, Malina, etc...it was great to chat to everyone and just hang out. Very relaxing, we had the whole place to ourselves more or less, on a saturday night. Emily has the pics, so hopefully she'll post soon. More or less, we closed the place down, we left around 1:40am. Eventually I kicked ourselves out b/c most of us had Church in a few hours.

Sunday: Church service, followed by pho, followed by hiking at Riverwood park in the rain...thank goodness for umbrellas...yes both M and I were wearing heels, but we survived. We also got to know Venus better as we went hiking...After that, the three of us went to see "Get Smart", it was pretty good and funny.

Fantastic weekend over all.

My Nicaragua Experience-My Memories

noreply@blogger.com (Bonbon) — Sat, 14 Jun 2008 14:29:00 +0000

It's been almost three months that I've been back from Nicaragua now...when I think back, it seemed so long ago, almost like a dream. Did it happen? Why does it seem so long ago? I was talking to a good friend early this morning around 1 and I kind of thought, it really seemed so long ago. I'm afriad I'll forget the people or the things I've done, etc...Then I realized a few days ago, while driving in the hot, humid weather, I was thinking of Jose. One of my students at Verbo school, and a close friend that I got to know while I was there. Both Serena(buddy) and I got to know Jose, who's 9 years old pretty quickly. I'll always remember him as the kid who came up introduced himself, asked me sit on the bench and teach me social studies in Spanish. He always had this warm smile and very pleasant.

That next afternoon, after going to Verbo, we (some of our team) went to the Esperenza aka the landfill, the garbage dump to hand out food packages, to pray with the families and hear their stories. A lot of these families collect tin/aluminum cans for money, I think it was 3Lbs for $0.25 or finding things they can eat or use in their homes. Some of the families living in this area, had homes that were tin sheds if even that. At that moment, I was thinking "World Vision" commercial. It's a lot different watching something on TV than being there first hand, taking in the smell, the sights, the noise. At first, i thought if it smelled like Toronto on a bad smoggy day, I may be sick, but it wasn't that kind of smell. At least I didn't find it unbearable. The only thing that hurt me the most was seeing Jose and his family living there.

I couldn't tell b/c at school he had this nice, crisp white uniform (he's sponsored) and this smile on his face. It really hit both me and Serena hard, b/c it wasn't just another area we were visiting and getting to know the families, it was already someone we knew and befriended. It was more personal now. At first i did not recognize him outside of his school clothes so I'll never forget what he said,
Jose: Bonnie, Bonnie (poking me) do you remember me?
Bonnie: (Smile but puzzled)
Jose: It's me, Jose
Bonnie: Hey Jose, how are you? (in spanish)

It broke my heart that I couldn't recognize him outside of his uniform and that he was begging/pleading for the food bag I had in my hand. As part of the rules, we were only to give the foodpacks when Pastor Ed told us to, since he knew who were the neediest of the needy. I told him right away to go to PAstor Ed, run through the crowds and tell him your family needs one. There were only two reamining packs left, and one was in my hand. I prayed and I prayed, God, please give Jose's family a food pack. I would be devastated if they didn't get one. Praise God, that they got the last pack.

At that moment, I was thinking, I don't deserve to live in Canada when my friends here can't even have one meal a day...if I could give you anything in my MECC bag that would help, i would have given it. Unfortunately, credit cards mean nothing, cheques don't mean too much either, it was cash cash cash...but we were not allowed to give cash. Luckily, i found some protein bars in my carryon, and other snacks that I gave to Pastor Ed to give to the children living in the Esperenza.

This was the moment that I was crushed...I spent hours crying in the truck, along w/ my buddy...it was really hard to take in. Even though it wasn't our first visit to the Esperenza, it really hit us both hard. Crying because life is unfair, and how much I have, how blessed I've been. How my new friends here in Nicarauga, don't want you to feel sorry for them, how they have also found joy with so little, and how God is in their hearts. How they are satisfied...they are the ones who are rich, rich in spririt. My new found friends have taught me a lot while I was down there, going outside of my comfort zone, helping everyone that I could...from handing out Halls cough drops b/c i brought lots b/c I was sick prior to my trip, to wetnaps, tissues, drinks, snacks, whatever fit in my MECC bag.

More to come...

1 Week Left before I go to Nicaragua

noreply@blogger.com (Bonbon) — Wed, 27 Feb 2008 04:09:00 +0000

I really can't believe it's almost here, 9mths of planning and actively participating w/ my mission's team to put this all together is almost here.

The Lord has continued to show me His blessings, and how it's not what I do or don't do down there, but to just continue to shine like a beacon of light for Christ is all that matters. He has a plan, I just have to wait, listen, be patient, and fully rely on God (F.R.O.G) kinda like jumping Frog.

I continue to be thankful to my team members for lending their ears, both Jon and Vern for the past week or so. There have been so many emails bouncing back and forth, advice, guidance, updates, accounting questions, everything. Thank you for lending me your ears. As our final week approaches, I get more excited everyday. My coworkers are excited and can't wait til I come back and present to them what I've learned and done. My Fellowship has been very supportive as well, guys, I don't know what I'd do w/o you. Some of you have been up w/ me to the wee hours in the morning talking to me, seeing how I am spiritually and asking me what I've learned. For that I am thankful and blessed. My friends, I'm so glad that you have all shown interest in my trip and supported me in various ways. I hope to continue the friendships and build from there. Last, but not least, my family has been supportive and showing their concerned at the same time. Yes, I am going down to Malaria epidemic country, although there is no vaccine, there are preventative treatments to some extent.

I look at it this way, the Lord has asked me to go, so I must go. Yes, there will always be fears, struggles, etc...but the Lord has given His confirmation, His blessing, so I know He will take care of me. Things will happen, things I cannot control, but I know He remains in control and at times like these when I will be away from my closest friends, my comfort zone, I have to remain strong, my faith has to be strong. The Lord has so much to teach me. I continue to pray and seek His Word.

Back from Ottawa

noreply@blogger.com (Bonbon) — Wed, 27 Feb 2008 04:09:00 +0000

Last weekend, I went up to Ottawa w/ Elaine, Alana, Pat, Marc and Dave just for a weekend get away. For me it was something to do, to relax go on vacation before my missions trip. Our trip started Friday afternoon after work, thanks Dave for driving. Everyone was shocked that I only had one FIDO duffle bag and one backpack for the weekend, and this includes ice skates, sleeping bag, pillow and clothes. I went into work that day w/ 4 bags but came out with two. I was able to use every inch possible and squeezed out a lot of air, good practice for my missions trip. Thanks to Alana for also driving up there as well, we took numerous breaks and still beat the boyz there(I know it's not a competition).

On Saturday, we went to winterlude w/ Elaine, Alana, Pat, Dave and Elaine's friend Jason. Saw lots of ice sculptures, had beavertails, lebannese dinner and drinks at 18. Best of all, I got to ice skate for my first time on the Canal. It was snow covered and there were dents and cracks all over so it wasn't easy to skate. So I basically held onto Alana or Pat as they were walking along the ice. I almost fell a couple times, ok, so a bit more, but I managed to grab onto someone each time to prevent/break my fall.

On Sunday, we all went to OCAC, where Pastor Dan was talking about pornography. I also met up w/ Steph from Hamilton who lives in Ottawa now. We all went for pho after Church, just like Sauga, and then went to the Byward market w/ the boyz in the freezing rain/hail. Due to the storm, our night out was cancelled but we stayed in and watched "No Reservations" and "The Kingdom", both movies I must say I really enjoyed. I kinda fell asleep through "The Kingdom" b/c I got tired and was actually sick. Must have stayed out and not bundled up properly on Saturday. I learned where Elaine gets her Sunday naps from. Everyone naps on Sunday except for me. Anyhow, after medication from friends and Auntie, I felt a bit better Monday morning.

On Monday, I woke up early say 9:30am, got ready and made breakfast for my hosts and friends, then finished watching "The Kingdom." On the way back, we switched passengers, Pat and I switched as D was driving me home. It was relatively a quiet ride back, listening to Christian music 1/2 way and the other 1/2 was jazz. Both were music that I enjoyed, so no complaints there. We all met up again in North York for dinner at Congee Wong. It was a good time to just catch up again.

Less than 3 weeks before my missions trip

noreply@blogger.com (Bonbon) — Wed, 13 Feb 2008 02:59:00 +0000

Yes, I'm counting down to the time I am actually leaving. I am excited and nervous. There is a lot to do still, preparing emotionally and spiritually. Although, no matter how much I prepare, it'll never be enough to what I'll be experiencing there in Nicaragua. There are people that I do want to see before I go, who knows, when the next time will be? Just reconnecting w/ close friends that I've lost touched with for one reason or another...I know when I come back, it will be hectic (work and personal life). On this journey I pray that God redefines my purpose, reaffirm His promise to me, to see God's hand in these people's lives, to shape and mold me into who He wants me to be. I know I can be an "emotional person" so I'm sure I'll cry while I'm down there and when I get back to Pearson, very huggable, not that I'm not, just more than usual. I pray that while I'm preparing physically and emotionally with luggage and materials/supplies that are to be brought down for the children, that I don't lose sight of why I'm really going.

My missions trip to Nicaragua has yet to begin, but the term "missionary" began long ago when I became a follower of Christ. It's only now, while I've been preparing for this, how true it is that I am a missionary in my own backyard. Inviting my friends who have yet to hear the "Good news" for dinner, sharing with them with what I believe but not just words alone but by my actions. Getting to know them better, showing the love God has given me to them. Just listening to their beliefs and asking questions.

That's it for now...

Chinese New Year!

noreply@blogger.com (Bonbon) — Wed, 13 Feb 2008 02:59:00 +0000

Last Friday, there was a dinner party hosted by the "Lok Family" ah yes, there were approximately 25 people in our townie. Thank you so much for helping out. Plans with picking up food, last minute things were very last minute, but God provides:) I was happy to see my family happy, it's been a long time since they've had people over. That night it reminded me how blessed I am to have all these people in my life. Some I've known for a long time, and some that I just met that night. Unfortunately, my dad was MIA, he was in Toronto, go figure....and my brother sprained his ankle right before dinner started. We just arrived to my place, and wow guests were already here. But I am blessed truly:) It was a night of a mixture of people from MCAC, HCAC, and friends from afar. Great conversations among the guests, some went upstairs and just jammed (worship music), some were talking in the kitchen, and the rest were entertained by the wii.

Everyone went home w/ homemade "Lo Bak Goh", chinese white turnip cake, "dim sum" item, and "red packets." Despite the snow, everyone got here safely and went home safely.

Thanks to all those that came, pictures will be posted on facebook and on here when I get around to it:) Happy New Year to All!

Missions Update

noreply@blogger.com (Bonbon) — Mon, 04 Feb 2008 05:15:00 +0000

It's been over a month since I last blogged...so much has happened but what to blog about? One of the biggest things for me in 2008 is going on this missions trip to Nicaragua next month. I can't believe it. Something that God opened my eyes to, and "GO!" and now I'm getting ready to embark on my first missions trip. Leaving my comfort zone, my family and my closest friends, to a country that is one of the poorest places in the world. I know I have a lot of things that I have to deal w/ before I go, including school, and just other matter that requires my attention.

Though this past week has been rough, in general, I sent a friend a prayer request, and tonight, after sharing w/ another friend tonight about how rough it's been for me, but I realized that I place the expectations for myself really high, and when it doesn't turn out the way I want it to be I feel dissapointed, a failure inside of me. But tonight, something's changed...I rather not go into details, and I know this paragraph sounds like a lot of missing pieces to a puzzle, but to 1 or 2, this will make sense and that's all that matters. God has reminded me that He is faithful and used His servants to reassure and encourage me.

I was listening to a song a friend wrote, and it really moved me. It made me think about my missions trip, "there's nothing to fear as long as I put my trust in You" how true that statement is. When I'm down or when my heart is broken down there by what I see, there will be times I don't know what to do, how to go on...there will be ups and downs down there, but I'm glad that I have my team down there w/ me for support, I will have my close friends praying for me daily and most of all, knowing that Jesus is there alongside of me on this journey. For He will comfort those who seek Him, He will hear my every prayer...He will guide me on this journey.

Please pray for my team as we are in the last month of preparation, we are planning our ministries down there, and fundraising for the Verbo Christian school. Pray for our health to be strong while we're down there, and team unity.

What a weekend, I've been traumatized?

noreply@blogger.com (Bonbon) — Sat, 22 Dec 2007 01:29:00 +0000

Last weekend, here in the GTA, we were hit with 30cm of snow. When I slept over at a friend's place in RH on Saturday thinking it'll save me the drive on Sunday and the snow storm, I was apparently wrong. My friends had a dinner gathering in RH where we all prepared dinner whether it was homemade or store bought "homemade PC Cheesecake" or homemade neptune salad, Southern Fried Chicken, noodles, etc... it was just the company that made it great. I was able to get my friend to make Southern Fried Chicken w/o drying the chicken, so it was moist. Although, it started to snow, so two of them took longer than expected to grace us with their presence. After dinner, Maggie was serving L's Cheesecake topped w/ Hagen Daz Bailey ice cream, it was so rich:) For post Dessert, the boyz were eating my homemade white choc.mac.nut cookies w/ beer 'Stella'. Apparently, it tastes good w/ that combo. What can I say? Except I have a couple cookie monsters on my hands, LOL...After dinner, M&K got all of us to play "the game of Life" Simpsons Style. So I was Mrs.K, a teacher, w/ $80K salary, married w/ one son. M&K opted out of the education but still made a killing. We all had a few drinks, to toast to a great Christmas, the first one for M&K.

Sunday morning, when I woke up, there was very little snow in RH so I decided to drive back to sauga for Church. Of course, I checked w/ Sam, one of my friends in Sauga who said, my area is clear...however, when I got to the 404South, it was snow covered w/ approx. 3" of snow, and it was make your own lane on the 401. It took me an hour and 15minutes to get to Church and apparently I was told I got there pretty quick. I knew that God had His angels watching over me b/c I was sliding across the 401 and I was pretty scared. The snow just kept coming down at a phenominal rate, that it was hard to keep up. Worship was great, I really enjoyed it.

Due to the snow storm, we brought the noodles over to Marc's place to eat. Unfortunately, I had a bad headache, so I couldn't remember where to turn and what street so I got lost in Marc's territory. I couldn't turn around b/c there was too much snow and there were cars behind me. Not knowing that one of the car's was Dave's. I had called him earlier b/c I got lost and I started to panic. Marc, Sam, Elaine, and Bonnie#2 were in the lobby waiting for us but it took a long time. We tried to make our own parking spots and got out shovels but were told to park elsewhere as "PlowKing" was cleaning the area. Apparently, the girlz said it was funny to watch us interact. As Elaine puts it, I had my knights in shining armor come rescue the damsel in distress, being me. It was a stressful experience as I don't have much experience driving in the snow. It took me two hours to get home, plus my car got stuck on one of the side streets here in Burlington. I got to call my mom and brother to bail me out and let's just say, my car smelled like burnt rubber. My mom fell while trying to help me, and I feel really bad.

Thanks to my friends for calling me to make sure I got home safe and sound=)

Christmas Party

noreply@blogger.com (Bonbon) — Sun, 09 Dec 2007 04:49:00 +0000

After completing my exam on Wednesday, I finished the work week off w/ a company party. It was a nice evening to see everyone dressed up, including site personnel. It was a relaxed atmosphere, at least for me, good food, good company, great convesations and good exercise. I may not understand why things happen and I'm sure I'll never understand except accept the fact that God is in control and He has a plan for everything and everyone. Why certain people cross paths, why the Lord puts them in your life, for a reason for such a time as this.

Update

noreply@blogger.com (Bonbon) — Sun, 09 Dec 2007 04:49:00 +0000

I'm done my exam now, and thank you to all of you for praying for me. Thank you for the encouragement and thank you listening. I am honestly blessed to have such wonderful people that care about me. Now I can relax for a few weeks and enjoy the holidays:)